What is your addiction

I was watching an episode of My Strange Addiction on TLC tonight. Three women from age 18 and 26 had addictions that are not drug related but are just as harmful. One has been eating plastic for 11 years-she turned to plastic after being abused as a child. How sad for her that she had to find comfort in such a harmful way when God can be the comfort she so desperately needed then and now. The other woman is hurting desperately over the sudden death of her husband. Two months after his death, she carries around the urn with her dead husbands ashes everywhere she goes. In addition to that, she started eating his ashes and thinks she cannot live if she has to lose her husband again (by no longer having any of his ashes left). Not only is this disgusting, but it is also extremely harmful to the body due to the embalming fluids used. The scary thing is: she didn't just think one day "I wonder what it would be like to taste the ashes?" She had opened the box to transfer the ashes for some reason and got some of the ashes on her hand. She couldn't bare the thought of losing any part of him and the best solution she came up with was to lick her fingers. When she allowed herself to process it, it became an obsession and made her feel closer to him again. Addictions don't tend to just become so horrible that it consumes the person, it is a gradual process that you one day wake up and realize you cannot think of anything but that thing. While I do not feel I have any addictions or obsession that have gone to the extreme like these two women, I do know there are things in my life that I allow my head and emotions to control rather than going to God for decisions and to satisfy the cravings in my soul. My potential addiction is dieting/eating. I know I still have some weight to lose and that is a fact, but there has to be a healthy balance between eating healthy, enjoying life, exercise and making sure that when I am eating it is because my stomach tells me I am hungry, not because something in my head says I need to eat. I read in a book the other day that when it is hunger you feel it in your lower region, when it isn't hunger you feel it in your upper region. I frequently find myself continuing to eat long after I'm satisfied, but I don't tend to eat because of my emotions. It is more out of boredom. I also discovered tonight that I eat to avoid things, such as doing homework:-( Just like the women above, I need to go to a higher power instead of giving in to desires that are not healthy. When my mind is saying I need to eat, but my stomach is saying I'm full, I need to pray and give my craving to God. I need to fill these cravings with God. Maybe, if I allow God to take control of my life, I will naturally begin to lose the cravings for food that is not needed. I don't want to stop enjoying desserts or become rigid about every bite of food I put in my mouth, but I do need to stop continuing to go back to the fridge just to avoid doing something or because I am bored with what I am doing at the moment.